“Hallelujah.” I feel the word rise to my lips from deep in my belly before I could even think twice. I pause. I say it again. “Hallelujah.” This time, I trace each syllable carefully with my voice, remembering its roots. I heard it once from a teaching and have never quite said it the same…
Read MoreGod’s Goal Isn’t to Make You Happy
There are several one-liners I like to keep putting out there, one of which is “God cares more about making you holy than making you happy.” Flashback to the famous A Walk to Remember movie where Mandy Moore was at a crossroads and when asked what God wanted for her, all she said was “I…
Read MoreA Lover, Not A Sugar Daddy
I still remember the day I first saw you. Immediately, you were etched into My heart. It was love at first sight and since then, I adored you with all My might. I’m sure, being in a relationship with Me is not all you pictured it to be. Because you knew I treasured you so…
Read More(Dear Church): Stop Vulgarizing God
“The basic trouble with the Church today is her unworthy conception of God.” -A. W. Tozer This topic has been placed in my heart months before, but whenever I try to write on it, I stop in fear that I might get it wrong. No subject intimidates me more than the nature of God, for…
Read MoreWide Eyed and Mystified
Breathing in anticipation, the pearl gates open before your very eyes. The grand hall, surrounded with pillars of gold designed in intricate detail and the ceilings so high they reach infinitude. Tens upon thousands of angels surround, their voices harmonizing in perfect pitch as they reach a crescendo, singing holy, holy, holy. And there, in…
Read MoreGlorious Mystery
You are above and beyond my wildest dreams So majestic, so infinite Wholly love, wholly justice Wholly jealous, wholly selfless How is that even possible? Such incomprehensibility Such enigma Oh so lovely It’s simply impossible to fit You into a box My mind can hardly comprehend all there is to You But if You deem…
Read MoreStormy
I stand underneath clouds of gray Swirling like a storm Resemblant to the state of my heart and mind Flurries, confusion, questions… Exhaustion Every emotion crashing together on me Seeping into my body Indecipherable which is which Encompassing all of me I’m giving in You told me, show beauty no matter the cost You said,…
Read MoreNothing Left
“Lay your life down” Again and again and again I have, Father Over and over again And it hurts It always hurts so much I don’t understand why Why You ask so much of me Why You mold so much Breaking, stretching As if I can’t take a break Like I can’t catch my breath…
Read MoreFaithful, I love
I guess what’s amazing about God’s faithfulness is that it isn’t just part of His personality, it is a part of His very being – He is wholly and entirely faithful. And such faithfulness doesn’t need to conform to how I think it should manifest in my life for it can’t be boxed – it…
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