Glorious Mystery

You are above and beyond my wildest dreams
So majestic, so infinite

Wholly love, wholly justice
Wholly jealous, wholly selfless

How is that even possible?

Such incomprehensibility
Such enigma
Oh so lovely

It’s simply impossible to fit You into a box
My mind can hardly comprehend all there is to You
But if You deem me worthy,
I want to explore every chamber of You

Every attribute, every secret
I want to know the depths of Your heart

For You, my Lord, my King
My deepest desire
You, oh wondrous You
You breathe life into me

You have taken off my peeling, graffitied paint
And exposed a fresh, clean canvas
You have illuminated my world amidst the dark
With glittering stars and silvery linings

I press my heart again Your chest
And dance to the beating of Your heart
And how it fills my ears
Your love, so deep and resounding like the waves of an ocean
Speaking of how we will never part

All I want is electrifying, intoxicating, awe-inspiring adventures with You

So may I have the privilege of finding out the method to your glorious unfathomability?

Ahhh, but
But somehow
I know I never will

Charting You just cannot be done

And thus it is my greatest delight to just walk through this life with You
Being caught up in Your enchanting mystery
Resigned to the fact that exploring Your universe means accepting that it is ever-expanding
Boundless in all its glory

Stormy

I stand underneath clouds of gray
Swirling like a storm
Resemblant to the state of my heart and mind

Flurries, confusion, questions…

Exhaustion

Every emotion crashing together on me
Seeping into my body
Indecipherable which is which
Encompassing all of me

I’m giving in

You told me, show beauty no matter the cost
You said, fight for what’s right even when it hurts
You didn’t say how tiring it would be
You forgot to mention how long it would take

But it makes no sense to complain
I just ask for one thing, I plead of You
Come in with the rain

Let Your grace wash over me
Shower Your love in a crashing, relentless outpouring

Be the wind that caresses my cheek
Cool my mind and refresh my soul
Swallow my tears and wash the hurt away
Then break through the dark clouds

Come in like the beautiful dawn

Shine Your light
Even on the darkest parts of me
Give me strength to keep on even when I can’t see

Let the new day begin
Another day to push through
Renew my spirit

I still trust in You



Nothing Left

“Lay your life down”

Again and again and again
I have, Father
Over and over again

And it hurts
It always hurts so much

I don’t understand why
Why You ask so much of me
Why You mold so much

Breaking, stretching
As if I can’t take a break
Like I can’t catch my breath

But

You are worth it
You are worth every piece
Every shattered piece of my heart

You are worth it all
So You can tear me apart

Ask me to obey
Ask me to sacrifice
It’s okay, because
You are all I need
You suffice

All that matters to me
Is You
Nothing is worth more than You

I can have nothing of this world
Because for me
Everything is You

Yes, let me have nothing
Just let me have You

I don’t understand why
Why this much
This soon
This often
But I don’t have to

I can not have the answers
Because I have You

You are most precious to me
You are most beautiful to me

Father, this is my response:

You are my life now.

  

Faithful, I love

I guess what’s amazing about God’s faithfulness is that it isn’t just part of His personality, it is a part of His very being – He is wholly and entirely faithful. And such faithfulness doesn’t need to conform to how I think it should manifest in my life for it can’t be boxed – it is as infinite and boundless as God for it is His very essence. Such unpredictability, so much unknown, yet still breathtakingly captivating. Still so trustworthy.

Faith, faith, faith. I don’t need to know what happens next, what is going on, why things are going as they are – You are faithful. And my faith isn’t founded on what is promised me, it is founded on Your character.

I believe in You – in who You are. I love You not for what You can give me, I love You not for what You tell me.

I love You more than anything and anyone.

Listen to the cries of my heart, my Lord, my Love.
Listen to how it longs for You and You alone.

Beautiful, Faithful,

I love You for who You are.

  
 

The All In Manifesto

 
Quit living as if the purpose of life is to arrive safely at death.
Set God-sized goals. Pursue God-ordained passions.
Go after a dream that is destined to fail without divine intervention.
Keep asking questions. Keep making mistakes.
Keep seeking God.
Stop pointing out problems and become part of the solution.
Stop repeating the past and start creating the future.
Stop playing it safe and start taking risks.
Expand your horizons. Accumulate experiences.
Enjoy the journey.
Find every excuse you can to celebrate everything you can.
Live like today is the first day and last day of your life.
Don’t let what’s wrong with you keep you from worshiping what’s right with God.
Burn sinful bridges. Blaze new trails.
Don’t let fear dictate your decisions.
Take a flying leap of faith.
Quit holding out. Quit holding back.
Push all of your chips to the middle of the table.
It’s time to ante up all of your faith.
It’s time to go all in.

It’s time to go all out.